Bored! Gastric pain! Fucckkkkk!!!
My life is full of shit is in a mess again. I wonder how I wonder why. I'm just so restless. I need to distress !!! Seems tat I'm just a trash in certain one's heart ....
Dear god, please I seldom pray! I know it's my bad when times are freaking bad I will then pray! I just want things to go smoothly. If ppl are unable to accept me at least tell me but not treating me like a fool.
I'm down really down. Emotionally instabled .
I want to get drunk again:)
14th May 2011 Saturday , 9.07pm
It have been such a long time i touch my blog... Stress up at work again! I wonder what should i do...
Having some funny thoughts again =p ... I wish to go back to direct sales i guess... I can say that i totally fail in telesales. I've yet to succeed in it , struggling day by day. Demoralize day by day! As time goes by, i feel sick!
I wonder when i will be able to stabilize on my job, what is my career? Studies, have done nothing to it till now. Money is not coming in but yet spending more than ever. Stress is an excuse he said ! Stress, is something i add on to myself. It's how i handle it, i have to overcome but not let it overtake me he said. If day by day continues to go on like this i will be dead. What is really wrong with me? What is the real reason i always fail? I want to vent many things out and most of it are related to my job. How am i suppose to not talk about my job to you when i basically only have work life all 5 days a week and home on weekends ? I understand most of the time our conversation is about my work life but as for now it's only my job that comes across my mind. That is the most important issue in my life. I can't afford to lose my job neither to get something lower paid by this.
I really need to distress. I need some healthy activity with you as well! I can't take it when i only get to see home walls every week. I really think that it will help us more in many ways as well.. Alternatively, you can bring me out for a drink as well. I've never get a chance to really have a good chill out with you. I really need some alcohol in me! I need a ice chill beer man!(It's about time baby for a drink) The weather have been so warm and humid. It adds on to me to be pissed and irritated.
I wonder why i blow out easily so often nowadays. Something must be really going wrong in mee!!! I really need some chill out place for some nice drinks and relax . My first choice will be a beer garden .! I wouldn't even want to choose a place like pubbing. I guess i just need some live band, drinks, ciggy, you and fresh air.
Bring me out of my sickening life will you :)
