Monday , 19 april 2010 05.53p.m


Hmmm met Aiai on sat at Jurong point =p .. Hee asked her to accompany me to get my heels. But we met for awhile only . Sadden than oooo off i went to work . =p
I miss you already aiai when are we meeting up again .

Yawns . Rotting at home doing nothing! So bored, don't know what should i do also . My drama watch untill i want to fall asleep . Net is so slow , so boring!! arrgghhhhhh AiAi take more pics the next time we meet up alright ... Misses!!! =p


WOOPS his sweet today .??





Hmmmm having the same bad old dream again yesterday . Hais being murdered in my dream again . Why must i have this dream again and again . same place same way but i just dunno where is it !... I'm really scared. My internet is getting way too slow and i'm pissed .!
Please i want to stop the dream








I NEED TO SLIM DOWN AGAIN~








11.31p.m

Will be having my interview tml ! i'm still not tired . I cant get to sleep . I don't know why but my mind keep wandering off my brain.! I couldn't stop thinking of you. Wondering if are you really sleeping soundly . I'm paranoid . Yes i admit i am . Because i do care , i do feel for you . Upteens of failure relationship ! Yes of cos i will be afraid . But i don't give up . No matter how strong i am but end of the day i'm still only a lady . I still need someone beside me to take care of me , to look after me , to give support and to give me warmth .

But i just cant understand why can't i just take it easy . I'm just worried in everything . And once again i've done something wrong again . I don't understand why i can be such a dumb ass to not know he once again will get angry . Yes he said lepoards doesn't change its spot . Yes once again the words pierce through my heart but same thing i know i deserve it as well .

Staying out when i was quite a young age was something that i couldn't take it from the first place. I'm feeling cold alone outside . Even today i'm staying with my aunt but i don't get the warmth i need. I thought i could rely on someone out there previously but things happen . Now the care and concern , support , shoulder to lean on , the warmth , a person to let me hug on tightly when i'm down , a person to lead me on and to let me rest on when i get tired out there struggling for life is you Baby its you . I know all this are words. But if you really wanted me to say all thing out i guess i wouldn't dare to . Everything from me now is only words to you . Actions ! yes i will do it . But to be seen by you anot its another thing . I wonder if you would seriously see if i'm trying . Yes i know it wont just take one or two days .

I'm starting to miss your lovely messages . The way you tease me was wonderful , i hope to see it again in you . You really cheer me up and really let me feel that suddenly i have got no stress at all . It brighten up my day eventually . It was very nice of you . I like all this from you . The way you sayang me . Maybe to you it meant nothing much but all this meant alot to me . Now i don't wish to stupidly disappoint you again . I'm gonna strive hard in career and in you . Once everything stable down , i will leave my second job in the night .

Will be there waiting for you to come home. Will be the good girl for you only . I just want to be yours. Only me to be yours. Am i expecting too much from you? Hopefully not . I will try my very best to be a nice and a good girlfriend . Acknowledge me please. =p i'm not gonna say that Oh your my everything , without you i cant survive . No i think all this are bullshit . ! But one thing i know . Without you beside me , i will feel empty . I will feel lonely . I will feel awful. ! I know maybe you or ppl would say aiya . sooner or later will be different thing liao . BUt no i choose not to make it a different thing . I choose you to fill up all this . Can you hear my heartbeat now ? I know you cant , because you stole my heart away.



I miss you darling .




04.42p.m


Having a bad headache right now .! just woke up not long ago . Been waking up every half an hour . Didn't know why ? Was waiting for messages but i got none! Feeling awful .
Yawns got to go get a place to print out my resume for my interview tomorrow . Choa chu kang area where to get this kind of place to print ! ?!?!? Oh my .! cracking my head now ?

Big changes after what i've done. Hopefully it will get back to normal as soon as possible. It really doesn't feel good deep down.


Monday,12 april 2010 12.56a.m

Thanks for forgiving me my dear. The cake is abit ugly i know.! But i did it with my heart. Argghhh but failed still in the end . Hais .

I will do things with action instead of so much words coming out from my mouth ok. Thanks for giving me a chance .Thanks ! I appreciate. Don't know how to explain the happiness , the everything that you gave . Just thank you so much baby!. Really . Content ! Ease , happy . Arrgghhh THANKS A THOUSAND times


Sunday, 11 april 2010 . 01.42a.m

I know i was stupid . You didn't ask me to wait but i waited ! I know you waited for me so many times. So now i wait its only awhile . I deserve all this. I must learnt from my mistake . But i know how many sorries to you now is nothing! Its just words from me you would think . But no its not! I'm still hoping for your forgiveness . But i don't know where shall i start or do . I'm lost , i fear , i'm lost of words in fact .

But i will never want to commit the same mistake ever again . Can i have a chance to amend my wrong doing? Do i still deserve a last chance at least ? I hate to lose you . I miss your sweetness . I fear when you are cold to me . But i know i'm in the wrong . I sincerly hope and ask for your last chance my dear . I do hope you read this post. As i know even if i talk to you in person or message i will get nasty answer .

Once again , i'm really sorry . I do treasure you hard but [perhaps] in a wrong way . I know i'm irritating , digusting . But all this words pierce through my heart . Tearing in front of you may be nothing either . I want you to know all this tear are precious . Are tears from my heart . You may say i'm emo or dramatic . You can say all you want . As long as your happy and could forgive me . I will take in everything even if it really does pierce through my heart . Cos i know this are all your angry words and you didn't mean it .

I MISS YOU!


BABY! I've learnt my lesson! I will only listen to you ok .. Please forgive me =p !
i cannot have you ignoring me =p . i need you so much!


09/04/10 Friday , 1.19a.m

Went for my interview today already . Wonder will i get shortlisted ! hais.Just finish bathing not long ago =p Now baby fall asleep already . Couldn't wake him up at all! eeee smelly bum haven bathe lo .Darling i wanna assure you with my heart . Everything from me is all from the bottom of my heart . I need you to trust me in order to stay strong and hold on everything tighty . I want you! i trust you. Please have the same thinking as me alright . I was hugging you just now. You are so precious to me. Please have faith in me , trust in me. I will really do anything just to make you trust me ....
I'm happy with you smelly bum =p .. Muacks


Yawns . Its 6.53a.m and i'm still not asleep.
Darling , so difficult to wake you up =p at last i got you out of your bed. Sorry to push you so hardly huh! Don't want you to be late for your work . Now waiting for you to bathe and get ready after that i can head home already . Go home rest awhile, better not wake up too late if not i will be late for my interview! Going to DBS for my interview later on. Hopefully it will go smoothly .. Hmmmm Wish me luck .


YAWNS YAWNS YAWNS ! i'm really falling asleep .


8/04/10 Thursday 12.40a.m

Suddenly you are so sweet darling =p . I like ! hahas . Always be so nice alright . Like it when you lean against my head , getting close to me out of the sudden and hugging me tightly .!!! Still at your place using your lappy to blog=p and your inside the room busy wit your working stuff i guess .! hee .....
I would really proudly announce you my boyfriend to everyone.. to my family ! It have been so long i last felt this way . Your really a charming boyfriend , a sweetheart .

I know you are not a simple guy and i'm still unsure how am i going to grab you tight. But i will cont to try and figure it out! . Love to spend time with you . Love the way you spend your time with me. It will just go on nicely alright . Muacks .


Wow!!!!!! At last i finish changing my blogskin... Yawns. It really took me a long time searching and editting. But still the outcome i don't really like it.. Not a very nice skin indeed.. Gonna do a better one when i get the chance again . As in provided i'm in the mood to do it . hahahs! . Darling is sleeping so soundly arhs . While i'm doing my blog skin . LOLS . Hoping to see him later after his work . WILL I? Don't know. Later than he will tell me know . OMG Darling i cannot imagine that i cant wake you up just now . Only when you going work than you SHE DE wake up if not i tell you , you wouldn't wake up !! Untill your sister came home than i'm able to get you up! I'm so bored just now when you were sleeping. Even the television programs are so bored at the point of time =p . But overall its ok la. I enjoy looking at your sleeping face. Its Soooooo adorable alright . And your nose ! Its so sharp and nice . hahas . Miss every single part of you!
Each time i see you , you give me this feeling that you fall deeper for me . I hope i'm right . Anyway i like the feeling when you waited for me to reach at the mrt , you go home bathe , relax , play your game and than i went down to get dinner for us! Chilling relaxing . I felt homely =p Thanks baby .


HEE i'm missing my darling already =p whahahas ... Getting a step further again i guess after today my dear=p .
Like what i said i chose to believe i choose to trust ... we can work things out nicely happily =p . And i was happy about the suggestion we were talking about just now .. 3 to 4 months later we will see how is it again =p hee ....
You are sleeping soundly now i guess . You have not been sleeping well this few days i know =p . You confirm not enough sleep de lei . haiyo how lei???






LOOK AT THOSE DARK EYE RING!!! OMG!

CHIUANGELINE~EGGIE

" She's 20,
living in her perfect world
[D].[O].[B]:12/12/90 "wink" "wink"=p

the Beating heart.

27/03/10.
We became a couple
" I'm happy with my boyfriend . ANd i said i miss ur smile... ur smiling eyes... i miss ur hug ... i miss ur voice i miss you holding my hands =p i miss ur heart . its all true =p "
EGGIEMIKEY.
What am i to you? Are things the same? How much you wanted me?,,
Ur smile with ur smiling eyes is charming.".
Not only starting this relationship
you show me a path and to lead me
my heartbeat
my world.
Its alive
I know i sounded dumb..
& now, we are going to hold on tight and work things well .