Monday, November 29, 2010
Hey guys. Free feel to spam me tat I'm a dumbass , stupid and no brains. Like what ya only act stupid infront of u ar. Since when other people will give me this comment. None really! You are the smart ass I know . Everything I can't outbeat ya. For god sake , you always want me to look at your point of view than what about me. You sick ? I'm having gastric pain here . How many times you see me gastric you cared? You sick i didn't care? Care you say nag. My pain is frm yrs till now I can faint with it u bother? You never even asked about my sickness . This sickness comes almost everyday . Only when damn pain than I msg you to distract myself . But did you fu**ing once reply!? You asked if I had my medication? All along I'm on medication you know? I just kept quiet right.
I dunno what u want at times
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Day 4,
Baby, changed already :( sorry i can't stop thinking of foolish stuff. ! I'm useasy ... I love you too much that's the only reason i can give.
I know you did not miss me after the first two days. I know just the first day you said all those wanting me to give you some peace and trust . But i'm sorry! I'm still going overboard. I msg you quite a number or times today and hoping you received it. I really hope your love for me still the same .
I beg you really no changes.!!! I see you change so much for me, things are going smoothly but please still continue alright . Oh my Oh my! Baby please. I hate begging you know but i cant stop myself for this. Way stressed up, fear ! oh gosh. Help! I'm so lost. Will you still hold on to me. I don't want to get lost anymore.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Day 3,
I miss you like a crazy woman! I wonder why you sound different compared to two days back. Why ? Don't you miss me too? What is happening? Hais I'm really feeling uneasy ... You don't want me already ? Gosh!
Went downstairs to grab some beer for my aunt at the same time my ciggy. I was without my lense when i went down. After buying all the stuff while walking home i saw someone wearing white pants and top. It just look like your dressing always.! The built as well was similar to yours. I went a big round as i was going nearer , eh it wasn't you lar. The guy was wondering what is wrong with this girl i guess! His look was shock. I look down and walk home. I can't imagine that i look at everyone, and they just look like you. I'm insane ya.
Come back quick.! And tell me you love me. Tell me how much you missed me. How much you will never bear to leave me alone in singapore anymore.:( Illusion at home while looking your our pics and yours alone . I hold on to our gingerbread man and your burberry soft toy and felt you were by my side. You must be thinking i'm crazy and nah it can't be. But yes ! This is how much you meant to me. I love you bubby .
Friday, November 19, 2010
Day 2. His still in Thailand! Wondering what is he doin? Was really wondering what u did last night... Colleagues saying so much thing making me feel So uneasy huh! Gosh!
On my way to holland drive for lunch now . What about you? =p
What should I do tonight? Psp? Drama ? Sleep! Yawns I'm really falling asleep again. Didn't sleep well again. What a nightmare yesterday ! Woke up and it was only 12.30am.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Day 1, baby called me once he touch down to thailand. Worried and been having funny and stupid thoughts. Baby asked me to be confident in him and trust him .
Send him to the airport in the morning, wanted to have breakfast together but he wasn't hungry =p Knowing that he is so excited for the trip yet i'm feeling kinda down. First time he gone overseas. When he went for re-servist i wasn't even so upset. Hoping that he will be just a good boy =p Don't fool around ar ... Before i see you walked in to departures, you hugged me tight saying you love me and missed me already . Wanting me to wait for you to come back! I was really surprise and really glad you said all those to me. You told me you will be back real soon and i said i was lost without you . Even finding the mrt in the airport was a drag to me. You replied you will come and find me when i'm lost=p You told me you never once let go of me! You said you only have me in your heart.
I love all this moment when you say stuffs like this to me. Suddenly i felt i've really won your heart over and day by day without you knowing you needed me in your life. I said we can make it no matter what. I will only kiss you goodnight, will only hug you to sleep. You are always on my mind too honey .
You called me just down again, i told you without myself knowing i change my relationship status to " In a relationship" and sent you a confirmation . I told you that you may cancel the request but in my heart no i don't want. It's not about the public, it's about telling them you have lock me in your heart. Nobody is coming near me.! I know it's stlll childish having thoughts like this but every small little things is just way too important to me. Every small little things is wonders to me. I want every bits and pieces to be done to our perfect .
I'm always loving you till now and deeper each day . I can't wait to tell you every single day baby i'm in love you with , i miss you. You hold my hand such warmness today. Never gonna let me go you are telling me. I',m gonna delicate this song in my blog to you. I will dream of you tonight!
Honestly, i do not have any appetite to eat but i will still go eat a little. I will be always healthy and strong cos i wanna love you protect you always. If i do not have my health i know i can't do many things with you . Love me always ! Muacks
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
How much more to be proven . What else more I can do ? I'm like a walking zombie . Will I be appreciated ? What should I do for the four days ? How much more I can wish for a happy blissful path with u? Is loving u a mistake? Is wanting u always a mistake? But I dun wish to stop and how much u know about this rather than saying I'm just talking too much.
I Care, I'm worried . I love, I'm paranoid. I cherish, I'm foolish. I hurt, I'm silly. I talk, I'm nonsense. I hug, I'm scary. I kiss, I'm insane. I hold, I'm afraid. I complain, I'm wanting to be blissful and not knowing how to express in the right way. I hide myself in the night, I'm facing lonely nights. I see, I'm freaking out with only seeing your back view.
Always siting down every night at home facing the wall, looking up to the sky , looking at the stars praying. Please don't ever change ur heart in my treasure box I kept it in me to disappear .
