Today is the day she ever heard the "best" thing in her life from you . "Best of the best-est" It will never be the same .
I no longer have any words to put in . This is what you want anyway ! I've stop . For now i don't know where i'm heading to . But those words are my worst nightmare , i couldn't even imagine you were such a cruel person that you would just spell all this sentence word by word to me . I won't be leaving you , i know i let you down in many things i should amend my mistake . Yes by having all these shit . Yes like what you said FUCK YOU . Whatever it is , i will return what i have once done wrong. But look is this happiness , by taking revenge on me ? Or what ever so call your nice ex girlfriend done to you, i have to learn and in fact help them to swallow at once ?
I'm childish , but have you try looking at my better side . Wouldn't you be childish at times ? No ! I wont remember your mistake but you remember every single one . Even just one word from my mouth is wrong and that's it for me . Have you take a look at yourself ? Are you that worth it for me to stay on strong and love madness on you . Do i deserve something nicer from you at least . Compare and compare . ! Don't come telling me you are not . Unexpectedly , you did ! You told me you don't have to live with all these ? But did you give me a chance to think or maybe i don't have to live with these . Have you really gone back into your brains to dig out some stuff and then think what if i were the one saying all this and thinking of all theses shit stuff (as mentioned by you) . You always think of how you feel , what are those importance stuff to you and what ever it is i have destroy. But in another way, am i also going through all this ?
Not only for your end everything is just important and i have to agree with it. I have my importance in my life but whereas it might be a very different issue . Apparently, you are cruel . Your mouth is such bug at times! I'm retarded ? Might as well say i'm mentallydisordered. ! Isn't it a better description of me . Have you ever thought you might be the one retard at times . Thinking that everything is just there for you , that i just automatically pop out in this world to be everything you ever wanted . Sometimes , i feel right at my end . Is it too much to feel that way ? I have my rights as well . But end of everything did i do anything silly . No I still love you as much .
I remember once i waited for you just down under your block . Due to my fault again .! You didnt answer my calls not even messages . I was like a crazy women doing crazy stuff waited for you there . I thought after i see you things might at least get better! ending up asking me to get lost and i have to take a cab home . But guess what ! I wasn't even feeling down (def sad of cos .! It was a upfront reject) but i feel ease . Because i saw you safely back to your house , i manage to at least talk to you awhile . You are back home in one piece. Everything was just worry .! Have you ever got all this worries in mind . No you don't . You have too many things that i dont mind being left out . At least i got my chance to be there for you . Every single quarrel , yes you said it is all cause by me . Ok just put it that every single quarrel i start . Everything is me . But if you really put all those words (not those bad words ) really the way you talk to me . It added on of hurt and pressure is much equal to what i have done previously .
Do you really understand how i feel at times .
♥EGGIE♥
CHIUANGELINE~EGGIE
" She's 20, living in her perfect world
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