Someone save me ! Tears rolling non stop down my cheeks in the morning! gosh . Why must you happily make my day and then mention those that stab my heart real deep stuff again . I tried to forget about it yesterday yet again today .
I'm like a zombie a living dead now . I don't know where i'm heading i'm lost . I feel like struggling stuff. ! I can't speak out to you ! I am a spammer to you now . I don't know what to do , i feel like shouting . I want to go somewhere where there is no one i just one to feel alone since i always do . I don't know who to talk to ending up myself always talking to myself here. Maybe i should make a trip down to the beach . Stroll along feel the wind also good . I need some fresh air to clear my brains.
Guess i really should move on with my life freaking stuck my head in my work load ! . I'm as well fragile and tired. It's not about you and only you . It's me as well . Since you can do such thing to me i face it . (WO REN LE) No longer having the part of the most important one . Ya true without my job i cant survive i basically got nothing . What you said were true la ! Can't work out find other people than get into another relationship la . But job cannot , if we lose it that's it . ! But lucky for me, i don't believe i can't get jobs outside and the prob now is i'm gonna stay strong at my current job . Earn my money have my life. ~ I will get alive dude . I won't get drug by you again . I'm awake . I should look straight and go further . All this you said is right . You are my role model .=p I respect you in some ways .
You will never get someone who just simply love you with don't know what reason and willingly for everything . I wonder why i did ? But Ya love is there. ! I basically run out of my mind . Sometimes i really wish to ask myself what is it in you i fall deeply . Maybe its god will that at my age at my time i have to meet you and unexpectedly falling deeply . Ok i accept it . I really learn many things from you . I should thank god for allowing me to meet you .
I realize love isn't everything in this world . Yes love may come out to be a help in certain period of your life . But without being realistic in life will bring you no where. So what we human being must do is not to put love in first place , you can't take 100 percents serious as it will hurt either party . I learn that i'm been always paranoid , sensitive , impatient . maybe many many faults of my turn out my past few unsuccessful relationship i didn't realize . But i strongly believe what is yours is always yours . What is not yours will never stay no matter what you do .
Time to wake up , stay fresh and start anew . Things will never be the same as wound will never heal that fast . This is gonna leave a scar in my life but i wont say its a ugly scar but a meaningful scar that i dont mind having it on me . It will always remind me for anything =p Its useful as well . Now i have to start healing my wound and protect it . I don't want any more salt water splashing onto it . And its all up to me as well .
♥EGGIE♥
CHIUANGELINE~EGGIE
" She's 20, living in her perfect world
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