I'm a useless freak . Just a freak ! Why can't i control my emotion at times. Why am i like that ? I hate to be like this either . :(
Can't get my work done properly even in my relationship i cannot manage well . Only know how to talk , complain and expect more . What else can i do ? Isn't me such a useless person ? Demanding ? Hais . I didn't mean to also . You mean so much to me like i can become crazy crazy . Everyday i only know how to afraid of this and that . I guess you are sian of my doings also . But i will change . No matter how also must give it a try.
I still put all those memories that you once nice , so sweet , caring days on my mind. What you told my mum =p I will also bear it in mind. You have dare to tell her you loved me . I should trust you but no doubt you . I hope things can remain like how we would! I believe it is still just that you don't know how to express yourself only . Be it anot i'm deceiving myself, i choose to believe in our relationship . Please give me the strength and courage . Only you are able to save me from being so paranoid , crazy , useless . I still want to be the one you once told me , bie let me think that you are a person i wish to marry ..
Husband to be . <<< Like how i tease you and said this word=p . I'm still deeply in love with you . I guess you don't doubt my love to you either =p I'm really hoping for the day and waiting for the day that you can do , say and express everything infront of me . Why i say i wish for that . Means by than ar you are very comfortable with me already . Everything we also can talk liao =p . Erm you understand what i mean ? I don't demand this from you so don't misunderstand . Is just that really the day come ar is really when we are really openly , comfortable about everything between the both of us .
Just want you to know that . I want a loving love life too =p . I'm also just a tiny girl in this world who needs that . I guess all of us in this world hope for that too .
Your smile with you smiling eyes is still melting my heart till now .
♥EGGIE♥
CHIUANGELINE~EGGIE
" She's 20, living in her perfect world
[D].[O].[B]:12/12/90 "wink" "wink"=p