It's the third month already . You remember . =p I just wanted a nice good night message from you . Forcing myself not to say anything , ended up myself resort to begging . I look stupid . I'm silly . Remembering some stuff that you might think it's really silly =p . But what to do i am silly huh . =p
Happy 3rd month anniversary , to you and me . It's a hard 3 months . But it will continue ya.? Not up to me to decide how long it gonna last and how well it gonna be . Leave it to fate . I'm starting to leave everything to fate. Being naive once and once again . Hoping that way will give me my happiness.
I love you . I love you not . I love you , I love you not , I love you .
I just received your message . But i'm sorry to say that and i have the feeling that if i wouldn had mention anything about it i guess you wouldn't reply . I always wanted you to take the initiative to do some stuff. Not hoping that you would be like any other people. But please do understand i take some stuff really seriously . Even its just small little things. Can i drift apart i think . But nothing makes me able to do it . You are like a magnet. It holds me tightly to you . I don't understand why . I understand nothing is perfect . But i hope my love life is good .
But still all i can say is ever since that incident things have really change . It will never be like how you were after that day you confess to me downstairs your house. You didn't realize only . But same thing , i 'm always waiting deep down for the day . You might say that i'm not content enough for what i'm having now . Be it anot i'm greedy . But my greed are those sweet times i had with you . Is it too much for you ? Like saying that surprise kiss you gave me downstairs my house? Missing the feeling, and hoping to taste that kiss again too much ? But you told me , i'm never happy enough with what i have . This are small small things that i can't forget . You set a trap i fell into the trap . Can't i just even think about it . The ever 1st hug we really hug while watching harry potter . You may forget all this and it might not be important to you . But it really mean alot to me . All this always keep me accompanied when you are not with me .
When can you really understand that saying all this will do a pinch in my heart. You always tell me you understand what i meant . But i really want to ask you again . Do you really understand ? I don't care how many hurtful relationship you been through , what kind of relationship that left you a scar in your heart. But i'm a brand new person , a new person to you , a person who loves you like there is no tomorrow , person who wish to protect you . Please don't ever take any of those to be a reason to not treat me well . I'm not saying you don't treat me well . I'm just stating some examples and what i hope to tell you . I know i'm long-winded but i have way so much things to tell you everyday .But i always don't have the chance to tell you end up everything to my blog .
I know i'm really greedy . But i just want you to give me 100 percent attention . Maybe that is too much .. Erm maybe 60 percent , 70 percent >? I don't know . Just want your attention . I love being like a small princess in your arm . I like to (sai nai) in your arms . Like it when you hold me like i'm your treasure . I don't like it when you can treat me warmth today but cold tomorrow . Like what i said, sometimes you don't feel it but people esp me beside you can feel you . YOu don't realize but i do . Like how you can ask me bie why today you so cold to me . And you will only reply me Ok nvm Good .! What is this baby ? I don't know want to laugh or what sometimes.
Have you realize sometimes your words are abit hush .! Cool abit can bubby ?
Stop here i guess before i irritate you again . Good Night . And Good night to myself .
♥EGGIE♥
CHIUANGELINE~EGGIE
" She's 20, living in her perfect world
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