Wednesday, May 12, 2010
When i see this , i do think of you!!Tomorrow going down to office for some contract stuff . Hmmmm Don't know what time i will get to bed . I don't know why i seems so paranoid. What happen to me ? I don't understand. At the same time i voice thing out to you but at the same time i'm scared your sick of it ..
I don't know why am i like this . Can't just keep my mouth shut and be it . I'm afraid to lose you i guess. as time pass i get more fear in it . Perhaps i been thinking of my family stuffs from my grandma's wake till now .. I may not show it to you but deep down everyday i'm thinking . I wonder why my mother would say such a thing to me . Mother's just over things wandering in my mind gotten worst . I didn't even wish her anything nor call her . I can't bring myself to do it . She didn't call since then either . Darling sometimes not i wanna be paranoid over things. I know you have your problems too but i'm really scared of losing family member . I know you might say all this you might been through . But i'm trying to be strong either . How can i talk about all this face to face with you . I don't want to bring all this thing up . i'm afraid it will affect your mood. I know i have got a problematic family . I hope all this which affect me wont affect us . Sometimes i see my family , so happening ( Opposite ) . I wonder what happens when i create my own family ? will i follow the footsteps of my family ? i can't stop myself from fearing cos i'm seeing it in my own eyes.
Sometimes i feel seems that you are the only one close to me and starting to understand me .. Sometimes i feel you understand me more than my family who brought me up for 19 years. This might be part of the reason i treasure you so much . There are so many reason for me to treasure you . But i know you are a nice guy and i hope you are . I hope i'm not wrong . 我稀望我没看错人. Superglue me and hold me tight when your with me alright . i want the warmth cos i feel so cold . I don't want to be alone cos i feel lonely . Save me before i turn into an ice. Slowly i know i will love you till no medicine can cure (translate to Chinese ) =p .
I don't know why am i like this . Can't just keep my mouth shut and be it . I'm afraid to lose you i guess. as time pass i get more fear in it . Perhaps i been thinking of my family stuffs from my grandma's wake till now .. I may not show it to you but deep down everyday i'm thinking . I wonder why my mother would say such a thing to me . Mother's just over things wandering in my mind gotten worst . I didn't even wish her anything nor call her . I can't bring myself to do it . She didn't call since then either . Darling sometimes not i wanna be paranoid over things. I know you have your problems too but i'm really scared of losing family member . I know you might say all this you might been through . But i'm trying to be strong either . How can i talk about all this face to face with you . I don't want to bring all this thing up . i'm afraid it will affect your mood. I know i have got a problematic family . I hope all this which affect me wont affect us . Sometimes i see my family , so happening ( Opposite ) . I wonder what happens when i create my own family ? will i follow the footsteps of my family ? i can't stop myself from fearing cos i'm seeing it in my own eyes.
Sometimes i feel seems that you are the only one close to me and starting to understand me .. Sometimes i feel you understand me more than my family who brought me up for 19 years. This might be part of the reason i treasure you so much . There are so many reason for me to treasure you . But i know you are a nice guy and i hope you are . I hope i'm not wrong . 我稀望我没看错人. Superglue me and hold me tight when your with me alright . i want the warmth cos i feel so cold . I don't want to be alone cos i feel lonely . Save me before i turn into an ice. Slowly i know i will love you till no medicine can cure (translate to Chinese ) =p .
