MY BABY YOU`MIKEANG
11.31p.m Will be having my interview tml ! i'm still not tired . I cant get to sleep . I don't know why but my mind keep wandering off my brain.! I couldn't stop thinking of you. Wondering if are you really sleeping soundly . I'm paranoid . Yes i admit i am . Because i do care , i do feel for you . Upteens of failure relationship ! Yes of cos i will be afraid . But i don't give up . No matter how strong i am but end of the day i'm still only a lady . I still need someone beside me to take care of me , to look after me , to give support and to give me warmth . But i just cant understand why can't i just take it easy . I'm just worried in everything . And once again i've done something wrong again . I don't understand why i can be such a dumb ass to not know he once again will get angry . Yes he said lepoards doesn't change its spot . Yes once again the words pierce through my heart but same thing i know i deserve it as well . Staying out when i was quite a young age was something that i couldn't take it from the first place. I'm feeling cold alone outside . Even today i'm staying with my aunt but i don't get the warmth i need. I thought i could rely on someone out there previously but things happen . Now the care and concern , support , shoulder to lean on , the warmth , a person to let me hug on tightly when i'm down , a person to lead me on and to let me rest on when i get tired out there struggling for life is you Baby its you . I know all this are words. But if you really wanted me to say all thing out i guess i wouldn't dare to . Everything from me now is only words to you . Actions ! yes i will do it . But to be seen by you anot its another thing . I wonder if you would seriously see if i'm trying . Yes i know it wont just take one or two days . I'm starting to miss your lovely messages . The way you tease me was wonderful , i hope to see it again in you . You really cheer me up and really let me feel that suddenly i have got no stress at all . It brighten up my day eventually . It was very nice of you . I like all this from you . The way you sayang me . Maybe to you it meant nothing much but all this meant alot to me . Now i don't wish to stupidly disappoint you again . I'm gonna strive hard in career and in you . Once everything stable down , i will leave my second job in the night . Will be there waiting for you to come home. Will be the good girl for you only . I just want to be yours. Only me to be yours. Am i expecting too much from you? Hopefully not . I will try my very best to be a nice and a good girlfriend . Acknowledge me please. =p i'm not gonna say that Oh your my everything , without you i cant survive . No i think all this are bullshit . ! But one thing i know . Without you beside me , i will feel empty . I will feel lonely . I will feel awful. ! I know maybe you or ppl would say aiya . sooner or later will be different thing liao . BUt no i choose not to make it a different thing . I choose you to fill up all this . Can you hear my heartbeat now ? I know you cant , because you stole my heart away. I miss you darling . Once again, i miss ur smile... ur smiling eyes... i miss ur hug ... i miss ur voice i miss you holding my hands =p i miss ur heart .
Your smile with your smiling eyes melted my heart .
